I have been studying about forgiveness a lot lately and I have had a crash course in information. One of the best things I learned is we can forgive and choose forgivemess but, and this is a big BUT, we can still have left over emotions, like anger and hurt. One of the great lies that we told is that if we forgive we are over it and peace and joy remain. Not true! Here is why.
When we have been wronged in some way or hurt deeply, we can choose to forgive. For me and many others, that means we ask the Holy Spirit to breathe strength into us to forgive and we lay it down with God. Depending on the injury and situation, it can take a really long time to actually heal from all the emotions surroudning this. Now, I dont always go straight for forgiveness, I am not that enlightened yet. So, if I have held onto something for a while it has most likely festered and will take more time to heal. Or if I was hurt over and over and even choose forgivness in the the middle of it, it can take time.
I was so often more upset with how I felt, thinking I dont even know how to forgive right. And then God led me to these truths. How refreshing!
There is more to the story thought, while I am waiting to be delievered, because I hate to break it you, we dont do that part, I have things I need to do. For instance, I stop talking it, I pray and ask God to bless that person and have mercy on them. That isnt easy at times. I was actually praying for my former fiance's marriage and children to be blessed. That one did not feel so good!
What I found was as I do the above, while in the waiting period, those additional actions, keep me froming going back to seething and starting the process all over. God knows our hearts and minds and all that has been and all that will be. We dont have to tell our story any more. However, it is important to share when we need to share, and to share when it can help others. That does need some discernment. Some places I still feel raw and it is better to keep my mouth shut.
I also learned forgiveness allows letting other be themselves. When we have annoying people in our lives or ones who dont let us be ourselves b/c of their philsophy of life, I also have to choose forgiveness. I think something terrible we do is not listen or let folks express b/c we dont agree. And we all think our doctrines are right! I have come far enough to know, that no one person or doctrine or branch of religion, or new age think yourself a certain way, know everything. We think we do, but I think one day we will all know that we were correct in some areas and wrong in others.
I had somethings crop up recently that are painful and what was so great is that I had been reading about all this and could choose differently right away. And for me, I choose not to talk about where I was hurt to anyone, and to realize that I am not on the same page as others. But love them anyway.
I am sure I will write more tomorrow.
Peace and blessings,
Heather